2022.01.22 21:19 ThanosMeChasqeoElAno Sillas gamer para todes
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2022.01.22 21:19 Humble-Sympathy588 (19) im misserable and don't even know how to help myself
hello. i don't know how to start so ill give some background. i feel like since I started high school ive been feeling worse and worse each year. first just generally upset that i was so awkward and fat, then started losing weight but fell in a vicious self loathing cycle because I seemingly didn't understand people. then things started looking up getting some new friends and making important connections. unfortunately had to fuck it up and fall in love with one of my best friends. like stupid in love. covid came around and my stupid awkward pathetic self became so anxious and afraid of losing her i ended up overwhelming her and now im deservingly out of her life. my friends say its not my fault and that she's simply got a specific set of issues that make her uncomfortable around someone so caring. that's all bullshit to make me feel better. more on this later. finally, after high school, i moved out of country to study only to realize my depression goes wherever i go and after trying my best at keeping up with school and my part time job i collapsed and quit. more on this later.
first, that girl did nothing wrong even if i did feel all kinds of fucked up. back then i would have considered her one of my best friends. i would say she did too, as sometimes shed refer to me as so, but i can't be too sure. she'd sometimes say things that make me think she thought of me as only a regular friend. we would talk a lot. shared a lot of secrets, vented to each other, helped each other out through loss, traded recipes, music, movies, etc. we would even teleparty movies or shows occasionally. at some point something happened and she got upset with me, said something about me making feel asfixiated and that i was treating her as if we were dating and that she needed space. we stopped talking for months. i can see why she'd think that. I'm anxious as hell and as i said, struggle at understanding people. id often ask questions i now imagine might be overwhelming, pathetic or weird. things like "am i annoying?" "how can i be a better friend?". again all steming from my anxiety. she also seemed to be struggling through the pandemic so i would often check up on her, maybe a bit too much. I wish i had thought aboout it this way now.
a couple months after we started talking again. and things were good. we seemed to have understood each other a lot better. she was more considerate of my anxiety, but would also be more direct when i did something that made her uncomfortable. i had a much easier time handling out friendship then. soon enough she'd have to move for college. the day before we had our prom. here's where the mistakes piled up. my anxiety was shooting through the roof. handling a party, and the heartbreak of knowing she was moving. i decided to drink a bit to help myself calm down (dont do this it doesn't work it doesnt calm you down). i started crying and hid in the bathroom. she saw me and we talked. i confessed my feelings for her but promised they didn't matter because her friendship was much more important to me. atm she seemed to have taken it fine. she said we would still be friends and to not worry. (i forgot to mention she was talking with a guy she liked online, and would meet up with him as they were going to the same college). for some reason i assumed this meant we were totally fine and kept acting as if nothing had happened. weeks later she told me on chat that she talked about it with other people (dont know who) and they all think I behaved like an idiot. i had already apologized a million times and apologized a million more. she asked me to give her space, but something about the way she said it made me think liking her social posts would be ok. (guys when someone asks you to give them space act like they dont exist even if it seems like a good way to still itneract and be nice they won't like that don't be fucking stupid like me). she removed me from her friends.
to make everything worse, i panicked and requested to follow her again. not even seconds later she blocked me everywhere.
i feel like I have very well cemented im socially braindead. but i also want you to understand that this hurt more than anything else. to lose someone so important to me. and to lose then because i can't fucking behave like a human being destroyed me. i still act like it doesn't hurt. but it kills me. i am sure we will never talk again.
next up i moved to canada to study. i don't know if i just hated the career, or the fact that no teachers would show up and classes were reduced to projecting zoom meetings on the board, or the crippling loneliness of knowing no one, or the fact that most of my questions and inquires would seemingly be ignored, or that i hated my part-time at McDonald's, or that showed up to a new country with the heart split in half but i couldn't do it. i quit.
back home and I don't know what to do with my life. i lost all aspirations, all goals, nothing makes sense, nothing seems worth it. i spend most time in bed crying, napping or masturbating. I don't know how to begin again. i feel like im gaining weight and can't fucking stand looking myself in the mirror. I don't know what to do with myself and feel like every thing would be better if i was dead. but I don't want to die. i want to see myself doing good in life. get a fulfilling job, and get in a satisfactory and wholesome relationship. i don't know what to do. I feel like im going to die. my anxiety is fucked up now. worst of all. i don't know how to ask for help. i don't know how to tell my parents how i feel. I've been in therapy before but it seems like even there i struggle to just be honest about how i feel. i hate this and i hate how I treat myself but it feels like it's just the way i am and i will never be "cured".
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2022.01.22 21:19 Clear_Mud1838 Anyone know why my puppy whines?
I have a 5 month old, and we take her everywhere. She acts completely normal. No fear. Happy to meet people, etc, but I've noticed if we're not moving around, and I'm making her sit and wait, she'll whimper, or kinda whine. It almost feels like an excited action, vs a fearful one. I'm wondering if I should allow that whining, is it a puppy thing? Right now, I'm correcting her, and telling her "no" , because if it is out of excitement, we don't allow too much excitement, but if it's out of anxiety or something, I'm not sure if there's a different action I should take, or how to even tell the difference. Does anyone else have any experience with this? Did/Does your dog whine when excited? Did they as a puppy, and do they now? We are currently training her to be calm and non-reactive on the leash. Which she is doing beautifully at, but when people hear her whine like that, they instantly want to talk to her, and "reassure" her, which adds excitement, and works against my efforts. So if I can curb that whining, that'd be great. Any ideas? Thanks!
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2022.01.22 21:19 edosn_01 Family ranch room
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2022.01.22 21:19 Brother_MaceCraze You look low on health, let Sigmar help you.
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2022.01.22 21:19 heartandsunlight Second day of not smoking! (I posted yesterday)
You guys were so encouraging yesterday and it seriously helped me get through the day without smoking. So here I am again, trying to distract myself and hold myself accountable by telling strangers on the internet about my progress thus far.
Last night was super tough. I wanted to smoke very badly. I couldn’t sit still and basically just obsessively cleaned and stuffed my face with blueberries and cheese crisps all night until I was exhausted and finally went to bed. Then I couldn’t sleep so I took melatonin at like 1AM, and finally fell asleep.
Today I have been distracting myself with painting portraits as gifts for some friends and family, and right now I’m continuing to distract myself with Reddit while I work out on the exercise bike.
My fiancé is cooking up a delicious smelling dinner (he’s seriously such a good cook) and I’m pretty excited about that.
So far so good. Have not smoked. I feel a little pathetic that it’s this difficult at times, but I guess that’s to be expected.
Anyway, what are y’all up to?
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2022.01.22 21:19 DakotaMeiguoRen Everytime I play this game (removed from r/forhonor)
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2022.01.22 21:19 MugShots DPS Alert
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2022.01.22 21:19 Luc_90 What job would you advise me to do after my BCOM grad?
Sorry typing on phone
Hello there. So by June, I'll complete my BCOM Grad and Im worried about finding a job. Most of the people told me to go for MBA, but as I am not a bright student my brother told me not to pursue MBA.
Most of my relatives and seniors told me that BCOM grad students get job in Call Center or BPO but my parents warned me not to do job there for various reasons.
Also im an Introvert who doesn't like to socialize and would always like to stay at home instead of going out. So if you guys could advice me about this, it would be great help.
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2022.01.22 21:19 SnooFoxes1103 What are the signs of someone being emotionally unavailable?
I dealt with someone the past 3 months that said they were emotionally unavailable and they would lie to me to push me away yet if I ignored them so I could move on all they would do is text me again trying to pull me back in. The constant hot and cold moments and being mislead were getting out of hand and very hurtful to be honest. They just hold on to past trauma and paint this false picture about you. I don't why they even try to date. I've already stopped any and all contact but I just want to ask how do you avoid people like this? I was told she was emotionally unavailable but I didn't know what that term was until she mentioned it to me. Do emotionally unavailable people realize that they are hurting people that come into their lives? I just dont want to attract people like this ever again, they really do hurt you. Its very toxic behavior and I want to attract the right people in my life. I haven't been on a lot of dates through out my life and any advice would be great. It seems like recent divorces and bad relationships are a sign but I don't know
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2022.01.22 21:19 NFTnoobThrowaway I do not trust myself with my own money
I recently came into a decent amount of money, certainly more than I've ever had at my fingertips. I have been using this money relatively carelessly. Some of my spending has been positive and productive but a good chunk of it has been on weed and another addictive behavior which I choose to omit from this post but I'm sure you can use your imagination. I am 27 years old and I feel too old to rely on my parents to hold onto this money for me. My friends have similar bad habits to myself and though I trust them not to spend my money, it doesn't seem wise. On top of that, I don't know how to even broach the subject with my parents or friends. It also feels like asking someone to hold onto my money is a cop-out and I really should be training myself to be more responsible, less impulsive and to take care of my bad behaviors. If you've read this post I really appreciate it and I hope the community can help me out a bit.
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2022.01.22 21:19 xSaviour_N OL Shenhe
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2022.01.22 21:19 LajkSrbija Seka Aleskić priredila slavlje povodom 2. rođendana njenog sina, a specijalna torta oduševila sve! ⬇️
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2022.01.22 21:19 shroxreddits Is it possible to get your post shadow banned
I posted this item and I put "open to trades" in the description Because I didn't know that wasn't allowed and it was taken down. Before it was taken down it was very popular, and now it's just dead 40 views in 24 hours. Is there some way to fix it?
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2022.01.22 21:19 Worried_Comparison38 H: BE Flamer W: GP or GL Offers
2022.01.22 21:19 MacJennings Which row are you picking?
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2022.01.22 21:19 _DancesWithCats Kitty merch!
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2022.01.22 21:19 Forsaken-Dance4877 Ktoś o koleżankach?
2022.01.22 21:19 GoldenElefant Stripchat user banned?
Hi today I had an user spending a good amount on me on Stripchat, he was also very nice and I made him a knight. Now his User Account seems to be gone with a weird smiley face?! Does that mean that this user was banned? has anyone ever had this problem?
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2022.01.22 21:19 peeweekid I captured the Super Worm Moon rising over the Empire State Building from over 12 miles away to give this compressed look!
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